I Am What I Am

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2009-09-02T13:00:00.003+01:00

Thank you for stopping by.

For more of my adventures go to Making the Two One.

With love,
Enocia

Welcome

2009-09-02T11:39:00.013+01:00

I am what I am
And what I am needs no excuses
I deal my own deck
Sometimes the ace
Sometimes the deuces
It's my life and there's no
return and no deposit
One life, so it's time to
open up your closet
Life's not worth a damn till you can say
Hey world I am what I am I am What I am, lyrics

Welcome to another new blog, which is a continuation from my previous blog: I Need Not Want.

I'm a huge fan of the Star Trek franchise, which I find very inspiring.

One of my favourite episodes of "Star Trek: The Next Generation" is called True Q about a young woman called Amanda who joins the ship hoping to study with Doctor Crusher and become a doctor some day. While Amanda is pursuing that career, she's discovering that she's not only able to manifest her thoughts instantly, she has the power of telekinesis. Once she's able to avert an engineering disaster that could have destroyed the ship. It is then Q a member from the "Q Continuum" of omnipotent beings enters the scene and confesses that he'd "created" the disaster in order to test once and for all if Amanda is a Q. Q agrees to help Amanda come to terms with who she is as a Q. Q wants Amanda to move to the "Q Continuum" but Amanda doesn't want to. Amanda faces a dilemma: if she stays in the ship and pursues her career, she has to agree not to use her powers; otherwise she will have to leave the ship. Amanda struggles with this decision until when a planet is facing certain disaster she uses her power to save it. It is then Amanda realises she should stop fighting who she is. She is a Q.

I can very much relate to Amanda's dilemma. In this human dream, the dominant programming about denying our greatness in order to fit into a world dedicated to smallness and being ordinary; a word dedicated to effects. When I remembered my true self as Infinite Light I knew I had to either live as Light or deny who I am and play the game of being stupid so I can be accepted.

Well, I have no intention of denying what I am. I am the Shape Shifter expressing myself as the many ways of being.

In this blog, I shall continue to share my experiences of the wonder of living as Light and being true to who I am.

As always, the articles I'm sharing are my meanings, perspective and model of reality and not meant to instruct readers in any way. Make of them what you will.

For my current and previous blogs see My Other Blogs.

Unless otherwise stated, all articles are copyright © 2009-2012 Enocia Joseph. You have my permission to copy and distribute articles for personal use only. Please include the link to the particular blog. For any other use other than personal, and any comments you might have, please email theoneinall@googlemail.com.

Love and gratitude to Ben for designing my fractal.

All the very best.

Enocia

Related articles: What is a Prodigy?; Playing It Stupid

Here's the wonderful Shirley Bassey expressing how I feel: "I am what I am." LOVE her!

Articles in Alphabetical Order

2009-09-02T11:30:00.001+01:00

These Feet Were Made for Walking

2009-09-01T12:45:00.009+01:00

One thing I love about going for long walks is that I get to discover more about myself.

Recently while I was on a walk with a friend, I took him to a park I'd discovered a while back. At the time I also wanted to show him an idyllic spot that overlooks the river that I love but I couldn't remember how to get there.

So I decided to explore that park again with the intention of finding that idyllic spot. Then I had a brilliant idea: why not ask my feet to take me where I need to go? As I was walking I kept wondering whether I should turn left or right and ended up somewhere else.

"OK, feet, I'm going to just let you take me to the spot!"

I relaxed and let my feet take over. It felt like I was being lead by a dog on lead. I watched as the "dog" took the opposite direction. It was then I remembered where we were. In a few minutes I was exactly where I needed to be.

"Good dog!"

I sat on a bench to enjoy the scenery and marvelled at how beautiful and peaceful it was.

After I'd had enough drinking in the scenery, I asked my feet to take me on a long walk, somewhere I've never been to before. I said I expected the walk to be delightful.

My feet took me all the way to the Olympic Park, currently under construction for the 2012 Olympics. On the way I got chatting to this woman cyclist about the pros and cons of hosting the Olympics. My friend wasn't keen on the idea as she thought it was a waste of money. I told her I believed it's brings new opportunities, which we are enjoying now such as areas of London being regenerated. I said I was looking forward to the actual events. We also talked about what it means to find a place where your heart is. I told her my heart is in the UK. My friend was born in England and moved to America when she was two years old. She's recently moved to the UK and can't decide whether her heart is in the UK. She said she loves where she's living at the moment, which happens to be only up the road from me. We talked about our love for the local marshes and the canal. I even recommended places for her to explore.

I also met a man and woman walking their Bichon Frise dog which, to me, looked like walking cotton wool. The dog was very affectionate. I asked her how big that breed grows and she said she was now an adult dog (8 months old). She said although the dog's fur doesn't moult, it does grow quite fast and she has to keep trimming it. She also bathes her once every week.

At the Olympic Park, there were other people on guided tour exploring the park, which looks a long way from finishing. I chatted to some security guards about the area. They asked me where I had come from. I told them I had no idea how far in terms of distance, all I knew was I'd been walking continuously for over two and a half hours.

I decided it was time to head back home. I asked my feet to take me back the quickest route and I didn't need to rest until I got home.

One thing about my feet is if left to their own devices, they would keep me going for ages. That's when I have to put my foot down and say "Enough is enough!"

Thank you, feet, for another enjoyable walk.

Enocia

Related articles: Cutting Out the Middle Man; The Present Past and the Present Future; Why I Need My Walkies; Being Led Up the Garden Path; What is Stamina?; Where the Heart Is

My Inspiration

2009-09-01T12:08:00.007+01:00

As I was going for a long via the canal, I saw two cyclists, a man and a woman, ahead. The woman told me to walk ahead. She said she's quite new to cycling and didn't want to slow me down. Her comment made me stop. I told her that I never had a bicycle as a child so I never learned to cycle. The woman, who looked in her forties, said she only learned to cycle two years ago, but she's been too scared to practise. She said she was very nervous.

"Well, you're my inspiration," I patted her shoulder. "Keep going!"

The woman pointed to another guy on a cycle ahead who was waiting for them.

"See, this woman can't cycle either," she told her friend.

The frightened look on her face as she cycled away had me in stitches.

As I continued my walk, I noticed how the cyclists were so confident. One cyclist had one hand on the bar and another texting on his mobile. I wonder how long it's going to take my friend to get to that level?

After I had been walking for about 10 minutes, I came across the woman and her two friends patiently beside her.

"I didn't expect to see you again!" I teased her.

"I told you, I'm a bit nervous," she chuckled.

"At least you can cycle," I said. "It's a matter of gaining confidence."

"I bet when you learn to cycle you'll learn quickly," she said. "It takes me ages to learn anything."

"I believe in you!" I said. "Remember, you are my inspiration. If you can do it, I can do it."

We chatted for a few minutes about canal boats. She said she and her partner were interested in buying one some day.

As they cycled off, I shouted to her, "I don't expect to see you again!"

I went into a park and relaxed on a bench for about half an hour. When I left the park and continued my walk I thought of my friend and wondered how she was doing. A guy cycling by smiled and said hello. I returned his smile. It was then I realised he was a friend of the lady cyclist who was a few yards behind. She told me they'd cycled a fair distance.

"Well done!" I said.

"Take care," she said, as she and her friends cycled away.

You never know when you're being an inspiration to someone.

One day I'll learn to cycle but not today.

Enocia

Related articles: My Reluctant Hero; Inspiration - Revisited; The Ordinary is Extraordinary; Cherished Memories

Why the Long Face?

2009-09-01T11:50:00.007+01:00

As I was going for a walk by the canal, I noticed two dogs; one was sitting in a canal boat and the other one was sitting outside. The dog outside was whining and looking so miserable I stopped to chat to him.

"Hi mate, why the long face?"

The dog whined and then picked up a stone in its mouth and dropped it at my feet.

"What do you want me to do with the stone? Play fetch?"

I hurled the stone away and the dog ran and caught it in his mouth and brought it to me.

"Good dog!" I said.

I threw the stone again and he caught it in his mouth and returned it to me.

I applauded. By this time the dog had slobbered all over the stone but I was having too much fun to care. I threw the stone in the air and the dog tried to catch it but missed. He brought the stone back to me.

I threw it again and he caught it in his mouth and brought it to me.

"Listen, mate, I can't stay here all day playing fetch with you," I said to him. "I have to go."

After stroking his head, I walked away without looking back otherwise I would have stayed playing fetch forever.

Later I thought about how dogs remind me of my nature as joy. I know I feel down when I'm not expressing my joy. No wonder my friend was looking so unhappy as he wasn't expressing his joy at the time.

At least we got to play for a few minutes.

Enocia

Related articles: Happiness - Revisited; Penalty Shootouts

Not on My Watch!

2009-09-01T09:44:00.036+01:00

When I went to bed I heard some young guys chatting and laughing in the street not far from the bedroom window. I decided to meditate for a while until I fell asleep.

I had a vivid dream about receiving emails from someone who has been rather emotionally distance lately. The emails didn't sound at all like this particular individual, which made me wonder what had brought on this dramatic change of heart all of a sudden. I wasn't convinced that the person's words were sincere. Just as I was responding to one of the emails, I woke up.

When I checked the time, it was about 1 am. I was aware that the guys were now standing right outside the bedroom window with their voices raised several notches and laughing loudly. When I peeked out of the curtain, one of the guys looked my way. I knew he couldn't see me, but I thought it was interesting how he looked in my direction. As I believe there's good in everything, even if it's an experience I don't particularly like, I knew that their presence was either an important gift to myself or they were mirroring a belief I have.

For instance, a few weeks back, someone stopped their car right outside the window at around 6 am and blared music which woke me up. Just as I was going to "blast" whoever it was with my light ray, the next song that came on turned out to be a song I'd been trying to recall. After the song finished, the car drove off.

Why have I called these lads to me right at this moment? How am I feeling? I'm actually feeling really good.

It was then it became clear. The lads represent a belief I have to love and accept people even if I don't like their behaviour. This way, I'm always being Love. That's all very well but I don't have to put up with behaviour that doesn't resonate with who I am. I can choose to love from a distance. I decided that right at that moment I wanted peace outside the bedroom window. So I thought "I AM Peace and Peace attracts Peace." After repeating the thought a few times, I felt my body filled with Peace and feeling it radiating everywhere.

In less than five minutes the lads moved away from the window. The interesting thing was they did not move out of the area completely, just several houses down; obviously, to people who resonated with their behaviour. I also noted that they did not change their behaviour either; they still continued to chat and laugh loudly.

It was never my intention to change the boys' behaviour anyway which, as I see it, would only have been a temporary measure. It's rather like having someone under your spell where they act differently when they're around you. I have had many occasions when people have been uplifted in my presence and acted or said something under that influence. When they revert to the frequency they're used to, they can't remember acting or saying what they had. It was as if they'd been dreaming. I believe the reason why they had forgotten was because they were acting in a way that wasn't "natural" for them at the time. I believe in order for someone to always be in their joy, the individual has to do the work necessary for transformation. Whether transformation occurs rapidly or not depends on the individual's beliefs and commitment.

So thank you, boys, for reminding me to honour myself at all times. And by the way, you're free to act as rowdy as you like, as long as you don't do it on my watch.

Enocia

Related articles: There's Always a Very Good Reason Why; My Core Beliefs; Love Gives You Freedom; Creativity - Revisited; The Power of Affirmations; Freedom of Expression - Revisited; Like Attracts Like; Man's Inalienable Right to Be a Sheep or Goat; Self-Respect; Circle of Influence; Consideration

There's Always a Very Good Reason Why

2009-08-29T10:50:00.010+01:00

My mother asked me to collect her prescription at her doctor's surgery and the medication from the local pharmacist. Instead of walking back as I usually do, I decided to catch the bus so I'll arrive before the surgery and pharmacist closed. When I arrived at the surgery, it was closed. There was a sign posted on the door notifying patients that the surgery no longer opens on that particular evening. When I called mum to let her know the situation, she said she didn't know the surgery would be closed on that evening. Never mind! I'm sure there's a very good reason why I couldn't collect my mother's prescription that day.

As I had time, I decided to pop into the local library. I was really pleased to see this particular librarian at the desk, whom I'd been thinking about. She also happens to be a huge fan of Michael Jackson and I've had long discussions about Michael's music with her. The last time I spoke to her, a few weeks back, she wasn't feeling well. It was good to see her back in form. We had a chat for a few minutes before I went to use the Internet.

The next morning I told my mother I would be collecting her medication later in the evening. I asked her to call me in case she did change her mind and decided to collect the prescription herself. Later in the day, mum called me to tell me she had collected the medication. At least that meant I could have my 2 hour leisurely stroll home.

Later in the evening I asked mum if she had all her medication sorted. She said it was just as well she had gone herself because there's no way they would have given me the prescription if I'd gone to collect it. They weren't going to give her the prescription because they usually need confirmation from the hospital before prescribing that particular medication. She had to explain to them that the hospital had already called her and recommended that particular medication. Mum said it all worked out for the best.

It just shows that obstacles are never what they seem. There's always a very good reason why things don't work out as planned.

Enocia

Related articles: It's All Good!; Life is Unfolding Perfectly - Revisited; Highly Illogical, Captain!; The Universe is Always on My Side; What is Chaos?

Cutting Out the Middle Man

2009-08-29T10:06:00.009+01:00

"Why have a mediator when I can go straight to Source?" My Core Beliefs

So I went to get some bicarbonate of soda from this particular store. When I asked one sales assistant on the till where I could find it, she pointed down a particular aisle. I was overwhelmed by how many containers of herbs and spices they had on that shelf.

How am I going to find you, bicarbonate of soda, among all of these? Come on, where are you?

After a few minutes I decided I'd had enough and went to look for another assistant. When I found one and asked him to show me where I could find the bicarbonate, he pointed down the same aisle I'd just come from.

"I know it's there but I can't find it," I said. "Can you come and show me where it is exactly?"

The assistant grumbled to himself and seemed reluctant to assist me.

"What happened to customer services?" I said to him.

As I was stomping up the aisle, my feet suddenly stopped and I found I could no longer move them. When I looked to my right I saw a whole row of containers with bicarbonate of soda. Thanks, friends, for answering my call.

I find life is a lot more straightforward when I cut out the middle man and go straight to source.

Enocia

Related articles: My Core Beliefs; From Mediator to Source; Whose Policy is it Anyway?; Customer Service; Fetch! Sit! Good Dog!

Many Happy Returns!

2009-08-29T08:08:00.010+01:00

While you're no longer here in physical form, I believe you're always here in spirit.

Happy Birthday, Michael Jackson!

Wishing you peace and happiness!

Love forever,
Enocia

Related articles: My All Time Favourite Michael Jackson Video; Channelling Michael Jackson; My Holy Communion with Michael Jackson; Celebrating Michael Jackson

Perfect Timing

2009-08-28T12:53:00.008+01:00

I recently received Gill Edward's Life is a Gift as a birthday present. Because I'm familiar with and already apply a lot of the concepts in my every day life I've just been dipping in and out of it.

On the bus this morning, I read a page which happened to be about selling a house and how people's negative thoughts about the house and the housing market can influence the sale. Gill's advice is for people to focus only on what they love and value about the house and feel gratitude to the estate agent. When you are focused on love you are in perfect resonance with the Universe that is Love. The Universe will arrange the right buyer that resonates with that love.

When I checked my Facebook later, I noticed a friend had shared about how after she'd prayed for one more buyer to come and view her house before she takes it off the market, the estate agent made an appointment for one more viewer. This will be the 11th viewer, viewing at 11 am. My friend said 11:11 is amazing for her.

I decided to send my friend the excerpt about selling the house. I also sent her an article I'd written about how this woman got her dream home. My friend said the excerpt was exactly what she needed to read as it helped her change her perspective about the house. She said now she's going to focus on the beauty of the house.

Funnily enough, while I was reading my friend's mail I was listening to Michael Jackson's song PYT, which I had been continuously listening to. Just as Michael was singing "Don't you know now is the perfect time" I was reading "What a joy it is to have you in my life to make that small alteration in mine right at the perfect timing!"

That's what I call perfect timing!

Everything is always working out for the best.

Enocia

Related articles: Good to See You!; The Love Pandemic; The Perfect Dream Dance Partner; Love is the Only Cause I Support; Timing

I Believe in Second Chances

2009-08-28T10:18:00.017+01:00

"Just because I've made my bed doesn't mean I have to lie in it. In other words, I expect to be given zillions of second chances." My Core Beliefs

When I first bought my laptop I was very much in love with it and we had a fantastic relationship. As the years went by, I got bored with the software and I wanted the latest versions. I wanted to get rid of it but I knew if I sold it I wouldn't get much for it. I kept thinking how worthless it was. Then one day when I switched on the "worthless" laptop, it was stuck on the dot prompt screen and wouldn't recognise any commands I typed in.

It was then I realised that thinking of the computer as "worthless" had rendered it worthless. It was time to reverse the effects. I started blessing it with love and thanking it for working perfectly. Each time I blessed it I would expect it to spring back to life but that didn't happen. I called on all the angels I could think of to help but nothing happened. Finally, I switched it off, resigned to the fact that I had lost my friend for good.

One friend who knew about the problem offered to lend me a friend's laptop she was looking after. It worked for a few hours and it also packed up. My friend said she would take the laptop to her father who likes fiddling with computers. I asked her if she could take my laptop and maybe her dad could figure it out. A day later my friend said her dad had not been able to fix her friend's laptop but he had been able to work out that there was a problem with my hard-drive. He happened to have a spare which he loaded. He also managed to retrieve all my old files which he saved on disks. And the icing on the cake was he loaded all the latest software I had been dreaming about.

My prayer did come true, but not in the way I had expected.

Although I haven't used that laptop now for years, I've never forgotten what that experience revealed about me.

So what if I make a mistake? I always expect to be given zillions of second chances.

Enocia

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Song of the Day - 19

2009-08-27T14:39:00.003+01:00

Here's a classic song by The Jackson - "Shake Your Body to the Ground."

Michael Jackson is so adorable in this video.

Enocia

My Core Beliefs - Part 2

2009-08-27T12:37:00.017+01:00

In my My Core Beliefs I listed beliefs that I live by. In this piece, I am going to look at how I apply these beliefs on a practical level.

One of my core beliefs is that "thoughts are things and things are thoughts." This means that all things are thoughts whether they are visible or invisible. When I have a thought about something it's very much real even if I can't sense it at the time. Put another way, thoughts are rather like angels of light that I can call upon to assist me as and when. All I need to do is think of the belief/angel which I know is very real and let the angel do its work.

For instance just yesterday in the bathroom when I accidentally hit my elbow against the sink, all I had to do was remember "Love is all there is" and that Love's intention is harmony and the thought form came to life and the pain was instantly dissolved.

When something appears not to be working out I remind myself that "life is unfolding perfectly" and I end up experiencing life unfolding perfectly.

If I'm feeling upset about something, all I have to do is think of "Love dissolves all grievances" and I feel the grudge or anger melting away.

My core beliefs are my beloved friends who are always there when I need them.

Thank you, friends!

Enocia

Related articles: My Core Beliefs; It's All Good!; Things are Thoughts; The Power of Pure Thought; My Choir of Angels

My Core Beliefs

2009-08-27T10:44:00.130+01:00

Two months ago I attended my nephew's confirmation at his Catholic church. During the service the church members recited the "Apostle's Creed" which is a set of beliefs held by Christians. I remember memorising this Creed as a child but at the time they were just words that meant nothing to me; which is just as well as I never did convert to Christianity inas I don't believe in the idea of a mediator.

I believe having a creed is very important as it not only reminds believers of what they believe but the creed acts as their life guide. I also have my own personal creed I live by which are based on observations about life. These observations have become my core beliefs. In my writings I share how I experience these beliefs in my day to day experiences.

Before I list my core beliefs, it's important to examine my fundamental belief.

I believe that all is nothing. By this I mean, all things are inherently empty of concepts and meanings and only have meanings I attribute to them. When I attribute a meaning to a thing or experience, I am dreaming.

I believe dreaming is an important aspect of experiencing life. It is how I know myself as a creative being. In order to create/dream, there are certain core beliefs that make them happen. I am now going to list my personal creed or core beliefs in alphabetical order that enable me to dream magic and wonder.

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A split mind achieves nothing.

Answers are everywhere, including my sleeping dreams.

Creation is making something out of nothing. In other words, things only have the meanings I attribute to them, otherwise they are meaningless.

"Every day, in every way, I'm getting better and better." ~~ Émile Coué

Every day is a perfect opportunity to celebrate the joy of being.

Every day the Universe is expressing as new joy, new ideas, new visions, new ways of experiencing the old, and new wonder.

Every moment is full of fun.

Everyone is always doing the best they can based on their beliefs and expectations.

Everything always works out for the best.

Everything has already happened. In other words, all realities already exist. When I want to have a particular experience, all I have to do is know that it already exists and let it happen.

Everything I want wants me.

Fear is forgetfulness of my identity as Infinite Self. When I remember that my self is the One Infinite Self then I KNOW things are always working out for the best.

How I see myself matters. In other words, my experiences depend on how I identify myself. When I identify myself as unlimited, so are my experiences; when I identify myself as limited, so are my experiences.

I accept myself in the same way the computer screen accepts anything I write without judgment.

I am always right. In other words, because the Universe is always mirroring back to me my beliefs and expectations, I am always being proven right.

I am feeling good.

I am the answers I seek. I am my own teacher and guide.

I am omnipresent, omniscient and omnipotent Love-Light that has always been and will always be.

I follow my heart at all times.

I never walk alone. Every moment I'm being supported by Infinite Love that wants me to be happy.

I pray about everything.

I would rather be myself than convert others.

If the shoe doesn't fit, why wear it?

Inspiration is everywhere.

It is my nature to be blessed.

It's all good. No matter what the situation or circumstances, something good always comes out of it.

"It's never too late to have a happy childhood." Richard Bandler In other words, I can be the parent I've always wanted to myself now.

Just because I've made my bed doesn't mean I have to lie in it. In other words, I expect to be given zillions of second chances.

Life is easy, fun and full of wonder.

Life is magical.

Life is unfolding perfectly.

Life is wonderful.

Life mirrors back to me what I believe, like and dislike. When I don't wish to have an experience I stay neutral i.e. have no emotional reaction.

Like attracts like but opposites do not attract.

Love and fear can't occupy the same space.

Love dissolves all grievances and grudges.

Love gives me freedom to be myself.

Love heals, harmonises, inspires and restores.

Love is all there is.

Love is everywhere.

Love is my nourishment. That's why it's important for me to love who I am, love what I do, and do what I love.

Love multiplies what I admire, adore, and appreciate.

My friends are everywhere.

My function and my body are one. This means that my body is the tool through which I express my joy and know myself (function).

My nature is boundlessness, freedom and limitlessness.

My nature is joy.

My nature is wholeness.

My one and only true love is no other than myself.

My purpose in life is to express my joy and to be myself.

No need to go looking for the desires of my heart; it will always come to me.

Nothing can dull my shine.

Only One exists. In other words, there is only One Intelligence appearing as the many.

Only I can make myself happy.

Only I can save myself.

Only Love Has Any Reality.

One thought leads to all similar thoughts.

Problems are Solutions in Disguise.

Questions and answers always arise as one. This means that I wouldn't have asked the question if the answer did not already exist.

The Inner and Outer are One.

The "past" only matters if I can milk it for all its worth.

The purpose of the Universe is to bless and to be a blessing.

The Spirit is willing...no buts.

The Universe can afford everything.

The Universe is always on my side.

The Universe is constantly moving at a perfect pace - mine.

The Universe is my self.

The weaker I am, the stronger I am. In other words, I am stronger when I ask for help at all times.

There are no doors.

There are no limits.

There are no obstacles. What appears as an obstacle is usually a blessing in disguise.

There are no wrong decisions. Every decision I've ever made has been right as it has been based on what I believed at the time. It matters not whether the decision was based on fear or love, it was still right. I can always choose again in the next moment.

There is great power in blessing, gratitude and prayer.

There is only One power.

Thoughts are things and things are thoughts. In other words thoughts are very real and become things; and things are thoughts in solid form.

What blesses one always blesses the all.

What I focus my attention on is magnified.

When I believe in myself and in my dreams, the universe believes in me.

What I love loves me back. (That doesn't apply to romantic relationships, however. Just because someone fancies me doesn't mean I have to reciprocate; and vice versa).

When I expect wonder, I experience wonder.

Where my heart is, is where I find my treasures.

While the Universe always says "Yes" there might be a price to pay. For instance, if I wish to be famous, this would mean giving up on my privacy. That's why it's important to listen to my heart and ask whether that which I desire is really what I need and will bring me joy.

Why fret when I can trust in Love?

Why have a mediator when I can go straight to Source?

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In My Core Beliefs - Part 2, I discuss how I apply these beliefs in my every day life.

Enocia

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One Light, Many Refractions

2009-08-26T13:47:00.009+01:00

An Internet friend told me that while he was playing some songs for me, he said it helped him to connect more by looking at my photograph and he had a good feeling and satisfaction. He said he was going to print out a copy of my photo to look at to help him play in future.

I reminded my friend that he could use his own photograph as his inspiration as the same Light expressing as me is the same Light expressing in and as him.

I believe there is only one Light expressing as the all. The different expressions of Light is rather like when light refracts through a prism forming the different colours. That's why, I believe, each individual's expression of love feels different.

As long as you're aware that it's the same Light that is in all, then there really is no need to look to another for inspiration as you know that you are that Light.

Of course there's nothing wrong with asking for more light. I put my name down on blessings lists all the time and never stop praying.

Enocia

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Quote of the Day - 2

2009-08-26T12:19:00.003+01:00

"People want to be told what to do so badly, they'll listen to anything." Don Draper

Enocia

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Song of the Day - 18

2009-08-26T10:36:00.002+01:00

There are some songs I never get sick of and I could listen to each day. "Night to Remember" by Shalamar is one such song. I LOVE it!

Here's my friend, Mr Banana, bopping to the song.

Enocia

It's All Good!

2009-08-25T15:39:00.005+01:00

I am finding life is becoming predictably unpredictable. By this I mean, because every moment is new and grander than the next, it's futile having a fixed plan or expectation about how life should unfold as the Universe is constantly unfolding better ways of expressing Self.

If, for instance, I've arranged to meet up a friend and he can't make it, it always turns out for the best anyway as I end up having a better experience elsewhere.

No guilt, no recriminations, no regrets. It really is all good!

Enocia

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Lucky Me!

2009-08-25T14:56:00.007+01:00

I recently started watching a series on television called Moonlight about a vampire detective who doesn't age and survives on blood.

I love the series for two reasons. First, the implications of living without growing old, which I can totally relate to. I must hasten to add that I'm not a vampire though I do know how to suck energy from everywhere, probably what keeps me looking forever young.

The second reason why I've fallen in love with the series is because I think the lead, Alex O'Loughlin, is the most gorgeous man I've seen on television for a long time. Hot! Hot! Hot!

I've just discovered Alex and I share the same birthday (24 August) though I'm 11 years older. Lucky me! Another reason to love him even more.

Happy belated birthday, Alex!

Enocia

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Nice Tan!

2009-08-25T12:42:00.007+01:00

While I was browsing in the bookshop I noticed this man in shorts with such a dark tan he looked as if he'd just come from holidays. He went to the gents toilets but was out a few seconds later. He stood not far from me. Then he asked me what the time was. I looked at my mobile and told him.

After shifting back and forth he headed for the toilet but was back out again. I wondered what was going on. Was he waiting for someone to come out?

Then he said to me that in case I was wondering why he was hanging around me, he was simply waiting for the cubicle to be free.

"Oh really?" I said. "And there I was thinking you wanted me to admire your tan."

He smiled. I asked him where he'd got the tan and he said he'd spent a few days in Venezuela where he goes often. He said the ray's were very potent over there and not recommended for people with sensitive skin.

My friend told me he was some kind of researcher interested in cultural demographics. He was particular interested in how slavery had affected many cultures. He also told me about a culture that hasn't been influenced by modern civilisation. It was fascinating speaking to my friend.

After he'd waited for about 20 minutes and still no sign of the cubicle being free, he told me he had to go.

I still think my friend had only been drawn to me because I had secretly admired his tan.

What I admire admires me back.

Enocia

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Song of the Day - 17

2009-08-25T12:20:00.002+01:00

Classic song: "Make That Move" by Shalamar. LOVE it!

Enocia

The Bus Announcer

2009-08-25T11:23:00.020+01:00

A lot of the buses in London now have the automated Announcer that lets passengers not only know the destination but lists every stop on the way. I've also noticed that it's the same woman's voice in all the buses with this technology.

For me, the Announcer represents the ONE in all, while each bus route represents each individual with their own unique personality, needs and desires. Because the ONE knows each individual intimately, HE can be whatever each individual needs in every moment.

Just like the Announcer technology is only useful when it is switched on, in the same respect, the Voice of the ONE can only benefit each individual when it is activated. In other words, life without the ONE is rather like someone dying of thirst right next to a running tap.

How do I activate the ONE?

I believe it is important to realise HIS presence, call on HIM for assistance in every moment, and let HIM experience life as me.

Once the ONE is activated, all I have to do is trust in the ONE and know that HE is always working perfectly on my behalf no matter how things appear.

Thank you, Transport for London, for demonstrating the ONE so perfectly.

"This article terminates here!"

Enocia

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Cloud Spotting

2009-08-24T12:13:00.002+01:00

So a friend and I were lying on the grass at a local park trying to guess what shapes the clouds were. We had such a laugh looking for clouds shaped like a cat.

I believe it's in those simple moments where we are being the Soul that is in constant joy and bliss.

Thank you for being my fellow cloud spotter for the day.

Enocia

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The Perfect Spot

2009-08-24T11:26:00.004+01:00

During my walk by the canal I wished for a perfect bench in the shade where I could sit and enjoy the view.

All the benches I came across in the shade were already occupied. As I didn't fancy sharing, I kept on walking. I finally came across this bench located a lot further back from the path so I could enjoy the view without being disturbed by cyclists and passersby. The only snag was there was a woman standing on the balcony of a flat behind speaking on her mobile phone. I decided to sit there anyway. After a few minutes, the woman went indoors to continue her conversation.

Aaah, bliss!

There's more than enough to meet each individual's needs, it's a matter of just waiting for that perfect opportunity to unfold.

Enocia
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Celebrate Good Times

2009-08-24T10:06:00.005+01:00

Well it's my birthday today.

In honour of this special day, I've decided to celebrate all the good times in my life. This means celebrating all the abundance, fun, happiness, harmony, inspiration, joy, laughter, love and peace now and to come.

What better song than "Celebration" by Kool and the Gang, a song I've always LOVED.

"Celebrate good times, come on!"

Enocia

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Amazing Technology

2009-08-22T16:29:00.001+01:00

I want one.

Enocia

Bolt of Lightning - Part 2

2009-08-21T11:11:00.006+01:00

Yesterday evening I watched Usain Bolt performing in the 200 metres finals. As part of his preparation, when he visualises his hand as an arrow, I couldn't help but play along with him and see him hitting his mark in record time. Usain went on to break the world record.

I thought it was interesting how one of the commentators described him as not having a proper technique and yet he got the job done. When Usain was interviewed after the race, he acknowledged that he didn't run well but he ran fast.

The way I see it, when you're being your Excellence, technique means nothing. Sometimes technique can even be a hindrance.

Another thing I find interesting is how Usain not only inspires his other competitors to do well, he inspires his Jamaican team mates to excel too. Jamaica has never won so many gold medals.

Thank you for being You, Usain. And many happy returns for today!

Enocia

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Watch the actual race on the BBC website: http://news.bbc.co.uk/sport1/hi/athletics/8213036.stm

Love Will Aways Find a Way - 2

2009-08-20T14:39:00.004+01:00

It's amazing how the Universe will find many ways for people to connect.

The shopkeeper at the local corner shop has been asking me all these personal questions for ages. I have a feeling his interest goes more than customer-shop keeper. He even gave me a bottle of wine last year when he found out it was my birthday. Although I accepted the wine, I made it very clear I wasn't interested in him that way.

So while I was in the shop this morning, I noticed some photos on the till. I asked him who they were and he said they were Krishna.

"Oh, I know Krishna. I used to chant at the Hari Krishna temple," I said. "I even used to eat at Govinda's, their restaurant next door."

"Really? I've heard of the temple, near Tottenham Court Road, but I haven't been there. I went to their temple in Watford recently."

"I've heard of that temple, the one donated by one of the Beatles. I've never been but I hear it's beautiful."

"I can't believe you used to chant," he said. "How long were you chanting for?"

"A few years. It helped me clear my head. I no longer follow any religion though."

"Wow, we must meet up and talk sometime."

Nice try but I'm not falling for that one, Universe.

Enocia

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OK, You Got Me!

2009-08-19T15:36:00.007+01:00

"People who throw kisses are hopelessly lazy." ~~ Bob Hope

As I was walking through the park, I clocked two guys sitting at the other end. As I didn't feel like walking in front of them, I took a shortcut away from them, but they saw right through me.

"So you took a shortcut," one of them said. "I knew you were going to try and avoid us."

"OK, you got me!" I laughed. "Here you go then!"

I blew both of them a kiss.

Both men were delighted and laughed out loud.

"Love it!" one said.

There's nothing like love to get yourself out of a sticky situation.

Enocia

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Love Will Always Find a Way

2009-08-19T15:22:00.005+01:00

A few months back I read that YouTube was going to block many music videos to UK users. I remember thinking that it's not going to make any difference because users are always going to find ways to share what they love with other users.

That's exactly what has been happening. When my American friends have shared videos with me that I haven't been able to access, I have always found another copy that has been uploaded by another user or at another website.

You can't put limits on Love.

Love will always find a way to be together.

Enocia

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Song of the Day - 16

2009-08-19T13:55:00.005+01:00

I'm in the mood for a chilling out song. "In Da Club" by 50 Cent fits the bill. LOVE it!

"We're going to party like it's your birthday."

Well, it's almost my birthday.

Enocia

Reprogramming the Memory Body

2009-08-19T11:51:00.042+01:00

A while back my mother shared the following experience. When she went to catch the local bus, the bus driver asked her if she knew a woman sitting at the bus stop. Apparently, the woman had got on the bus intending to go somewhere and had forgotten where. She'd also forgotten where she lived. The driver suggested she stay on the bus and he'll return her to the stop she'd got on at. Mum told the driver that the woman lives in the neighbourhood. She even offered to walk her to her front door. As mum was walking her home, she recognised the area, thanked mum, and walked home alone. Mum said she really felt sad for the woman as it must be frightening losing your memory. The woman has since been taken into a care home.

I can relate to that woman's experience. Once when I was travelling on the bus, I fell into a deep sleep. When I woke up, I was so disorientated I couldn't remember where I was or even who I was. I simply experienced myself as good feelings.

Now it's all very well having all these wonderful feelings, however, I knew there was no way I could continue having this human experience with no memory of who I am or what things are for. So I snapped out of that state and remembered I was travelling on a bus.

So in order to experience this reality I need a memory body, which is a useful tool that holds old memories in place. If the memory body wasn't holding this image of my body in place, I would wake up each day with a totally new face and body. Imagine trying to explain that to my loved ones that I'm the same me, I just look different. I doubt if they would buy that excuse.

The problem with the memory body is it's a double-edge sword as it likes to dictate not only how people, animals and nature should appear but how long they should maintain their appearance. That's why I believe it's important to take control and show the memory body who is boss.

How?

By reprogramming the memory body to continuously receive new memories and experience the old in a new and better way.

Speaking of which, a woman who works in the local community once asked my mother the following.

"Who is that young girl I sometimes see you with? Is she your daughter?"

"Yes she is," mum said. "But she's not a young girl, you know. She's 42."

"Unbelievable!" the woman said. "She doesn't look it. I thought you had her late in life."

That's one of the fun effects of reprogramming the memory body - I get to maintain my appearance while appearing ever youthful.

I'm really grateful for the memory body, which enables me to enjoy life in this form.

Enocia

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Song of the Day - 15

2009-08-18T13:40:00.005+01:00

I've always loved this song because of the video as it's fantastic. It's like watching the magnificence of the Soul in motion. "Sing it Back" by Moloko.

Michael Jackson's video for Rock with You is very similar.

Enocia

Good to See You!

2009-08-17T16:10:00.004+01:00

For weeks I'd been wondering about a dog friend called Sid, whom I haven't seen in a while. I remember his human guardian telling me that Sid is getting old. I was wondering if he was still around.

When my mother asked me to run an errand for her, although I was going to be delayed going into town, I knew everything was working out for the best.

As I was walking later through the park, I saw Sid and his human friend. I was so happy to see him. I told him I'd been wondering how he is. His friend said Sid hasn't been feeling very well.

Good to see you're still going strong, Sid.

Just shows that if I hadn't ran the errand for my mother I wouldn't have met up with my friend, Sid. Everything does work out for the best.

Enocia

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Down Boy!

2009-08-17T14:10:00.009+01:00

I have an inner dog that I've been training to be under the command of Light. By this I mean the dog is the aspect of self that identifies itself as the limited form. The idea is to train the dog to identify itself as boundless Light.

For instance, in the middle of the night I woke up with the urge to cough. I repeated in thought: "Light" until the urge left me.

In other words, I was giving my inner dog the Light command which recognises my body as Light. Light cannot experience cough.

Thank you for being Light, dog.

Enocia

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Love Gives You Freedom

2009-08-17T12:03:00.030+01:00

"Love does not claim possession, but gives freedom." ~~ Rabindranath Tagore

The wonderful thing, I find, about watching films I love is I always find something new and meaningful every time I watch it.

While I was watching ET: The Extra-Terrestrial yesterday, one of my favourite films, it occurred to me how Elliot and ET's relationship represents what it means to love without possession. When Elliot discovers ET, who has been accidentally abandoned on earth by his parents, Elliott decides to keep ET as his personal friend, though he keeps ET a secret from his mother. As ET and Elliott grow closer, they are so at one that Elliott can not only feel what ET is feeling, he can also act out what ET is thinking.

Although ET adapts to the human ways quickly, he can't help feeling homesick. He asks Elliott and his brother and sister to help him contact home, which they do. As ET grows more and more homesick, it affects Elliott's health.

Finally, ET is captured by the authorities who try to do various tests on ET to understand him. The scientists discover ET and Elliott's brain patterns are in perfect synchrony. It is only when ET "dies" that Elliott returns to normal and gets better.

When Elliott goes to say goodbye to ET's corpse and tells him how much he loves him, he discovers ET is still alive. ET asks Elliott to take him to the forest where his family are going to pick him up. Elliott's brother and friends accompany them to the pick-up point.

There's that poignant scene when ET is saying goodbye to Elliott and he asks Elliott to come with him but Elliott asks him to stay. They both realise that as much as they love each other, both have to be given the freedom to be true to themselves. Before ET leaves he tells Elliott that he will always be with him.

I believe "ET" is a reminder that love doesn't possess but gives everyone the freedom to express who they are. Sometimes this might mean either spending time together or apart.

Whether we're together or physically apart, we are always one in love.

Enocia

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At Home with ET

2009-08-17T11:31:00.006+01:00

A few days ago, when my mother had a towel round her head, she joked around that she looked like ET from the movie, ET: The Extra-Terrestrial. Later that day I was inspired to watch Michael Jackson's video "Human Nature", which was the first time I'd actually seen the video even though I knew the song. On the video were photos of Michael and ET.

So yesterday afternoon while I was at home watching television, as I was channel hopping I noticed "ET" was on one channel, which I brought to my mother's attention. As the film was almost finished I decided to catch the last hour at the other channel where they usually repeat programmes. I caught the part where ET had a cloth around its head and looked exactly like my mother had looked a few days ago.

Mum was amazed at the synchronicity.

Thanks for paying us a visit, ET. Please call again soon!

Enocia

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Bolt of Lightning

2009-08-17T10:21:00.021+01:00

I have written elsewhere that I believe that the reason why the human body is not advancing as fast as technology is because most people identify themselves as the self that withers and dies, until they wake up from "dying" and discover that they are in fact the Infinite Self that has always been and will always be.

I believe when I identify myself as the Infinite Self,

"Then each and every single day is the Infinite Self being expressed as new cells, new energy, new life, new ideas, new joy, new opportunities, new passion, new visions, new ways of experiencing the old, new wisdom, and new wonder. As my body is the Infinite Self in visible form, I expect my body to grow more and more beautiful and radiant; rather like the telephones that are getting better and better in design...forever." New Every Morning

Yesterday evening I watched the World Athletics. I was really looking forward to the 100 metres finals because I knew it was going to be something special. Just before the race started, in thought, I wished all the athletes the very best, as I didn't want to get emotional about the race. Then I relaxed and witnessed Usain Bolt smash the current world record like the bolt of lightning that he is. While "awesome" is not a word I often use, I can't think of another word to describe what I'd witnessed! Awesome!

One commentator believed Usain is the genius that he is because he loves running and is full of running.

For me, Usain Bolt demonstrates the newness of the Infinite Self being expressed in every moment.

New energy is expressed in the effortless way Usain runs.

After the race when Usain was interviewed about his achievement, he said he'd been feeling really good and expected a great race and he went on to "execute" it. In other words, he was expressing ever new joy.

New vision is expressed in the way Usain is constantly dreaming of new goals. I loved it when he was mentally preparing for the race by seeing his hand shooting in front of him like an arrow.

New ways of experiencing the old is expressed in the way Usain continues to break old world records and pushing the boundaries of what is possible.

I can imagine that world record is going to be broken again and again because it's the nature of the Infinite Self to express new wonders.

Thank you, Usain, for being the Wonder in motion. I love you!
Keep doing your thing!

Enocia

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Watch the actual race on the BBC website: http://news.bbc.co.uk/sport1/hi/athletics/8204737.stm

Usain Bolt interview: http://news.bbc.co.uk/sport1/hi/athletics/8204517.stm

Another New Day

2009-08-16T13:28:00.003+01:00

I've never blogged this way before.

No, I have not.

Makes a change, does it not?

Indeed, it does.

Happy day to all!

Enocia

Related article: New Every Morning

New Every Morning

2009-08-15T12:51:00.035+01:00

Every day is new, which brings new opportunities, new wonder, and new joy.

This means it doesn't matter what was going on in the previous day, the next day not only overwrites the old but makes it even better. How does this work in practice?

Take the rate at which information technology has developed. Years ago there was the old-fashion dial telephone which evolved to the touch tone. When the mobile was invented, it was huge with the long aerial. Now the mobiles have got even more refined with more facilities. With the mobile phone there is no longer any time and distance between people. All you have to do is dial the other's mobile and you're in direct contact.

Look how long it used to take to send letters by post. Now you can either email or send a text message which take no time at all.

Still another way to communicate is in front of the computer where you can speak to each other via the web cam.

Of course the ultimate form of communication is telepathy but most people don't believe this is possible.

Back to the advance of technology, how come man's body is not making such rapid progress?

I believe it's because most people believe there are two aspects of self: the self that gets sick, grows old and dies; and the Infinite Self that doesn't change. Since most people identity themselves as the self that is on a downward spiral, their bodies appear to wither and die. However, when they die, they wake up from the death dream only to discover that they still exist as the Infinite Self.

What if you identify yourself as the Infinite Self that is forever? Then each and every single day is the Infinite Self being expressed as new cells, new energy, new life, new ideas, new joy, new opportunties, new passion, new visions, new ways of experiencing the old, new wisdom, and new wonder. As my body is the Infinite Self in visible form, I expect my body to grow more and more beautiful and radiant; rather like the telephones that are getting better and better in design...forever.

One way I practise identifying myself as the Infinite Self is by being in silence. Then the Light is constantly pouring through me making all things new, forever more.

Enocia

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Good One!

2009-08-14T14:43:00.006+01:00

While I was booking a computer at the library reception, one librarian asked me if I was aware that because of health and safety regulations I shouldn't be sitting in front of the computer all day.

"Yes, I'm aware of that," I said.

"Do you take frequent breaks?"

"Yes, she does take breaks," the other librarian said, "when she finishes in the evening."

"Good one!" I chuckled.

Of course I do adhere to the health and safety regulations. That's why I take a nice long break at the end of the day.

Happy now?

Enocia

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Never Again!

2009-08-14T13:47:00.011+01:00

New every morning is the love
Our wakening and uprising prove;
Through sleep and darkness safely brought,
Restored to life and power and thought.

New mercies, each returning day,
Hover around us while we pray;
New perils past, new sins forgiven,
New thoughts of God, new hopes of heaven. New Every Morning is the Love

While I was working in the library, I started losing vision in one eye. For a while I continued to work but as it got worse I decided to leave. I stopped off at the shop to run an errand for my mother.

When I went home I decided to just lie down and let it pass, but it developed into a full blown migraine. As I prayed for help it got worse. I started throwing up and even had a stomach upset.

The weird thing was when I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw I was looking radiant, which is not surprising really because I, the Self, that has always been and will always exist, is forever shining Her radiant light.

My mother asked me if I wanted her to fix me a drink but I wasn't in the mood for anything.

I continued to pray.

A few hours later, my mother's friend came to visit. I heard he'd brought some takeaway chicken for us, but mum told him I wasn't well. The way I was feeling the last thing on my mind was food. I vowed to myself that I will never have any food again as long as I'm in this reality.

By the middle of the night, when my stomach had settled, I had a glass of juice. I spent a few hours sitting in silence then I fell asleep.

This morning mum asked me if I was going to stay home today and I told her there was no need. Before I went to the bathroom, I headed straight to the kitchen and heated my piece of chicken in the microwave. It was delicious!

In case anyone is wondering what I meant when I said "I will never have any food again as long as I'm in this reality", I meant yesterday's reality.

Today is a new day and I'm feeling good.

Enocia

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Why Someone Benefits From Another's Suffering

2009-08-14T12:40:00.006+01:00

In the last Dragon's Den, the TV programme where entrepreneurs pitch their inventions in order to get investment from the "dragons"/business experts, one entrepreneur's business was cleaning agents. He said since the "swine flu" business has now picked up. Now more companies are buying more cleaning agents to protect their staff and clients. One of the investors was very interested and wanted to invest. Because the entrepreneur believed the "dragon" was asking too share from his business, he declined his offer of investment. I'm sure there are lots of investors watching the show who are going to fall over backwards to invest in that entrepreneur. And why not?

Isn't it interesting how someone always benefits from another's suffering, albeit people believe they are trying to eradicate suffering?

I believe that's because one is either trusting in fear or love.

I believe that as long as there are people who benefit from fear manifesting as illness, old age, crime, poverty, etc, there's no incentive to get rid of it. That's why while there are people who don't want "swine flu", there are the pharmaceutical companies who want the pandemic to get worse, as well as cleaning manufacturers, insurance companies, doctors, lawyers, and even funeral directors who obviously benefit from the "pandemic."

How does one stop benefitting from fear? By disconnecting from fear, refusing to buy into fear; and only trusting in Love.

I believe that choosing the path of Love is not something that can be taken lightly. It means being really honest with one's self that you are prepared to give up on all the benefits and trust only in Love. While I've disconnected from taking medication and rely on Love for healing and taking care of my needs, I haven't stopped eating food. Although I know how to sustain myself with Light, I am having way too much fun to stop eating food. At least I'm being honest with myself.

Love to all no matter what path you are choosing.

Enocia

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One Act of Kindness is Still Reaping Dividends

2009-08-13T12:25:00.011+01:00

It's amazing what one act of kindness can do.

Just over a year ago, as I was walking home, I noticed this woman ahead of me with some shopping bags. I asked her if I could help her carry them. She felt guilty that I had only left her with one bag to carry. I told her she deserved to be pampered. She said she felt God was answering her prayer through me. I said I'd had a good day and wanted to share my joy with her.

It turned out she didn't live far from me. As we walked to her house, she told me she was a pastor. She asked me whether I was a Christian. I said I didn't follow any religion but believed in God. My friend insisted that I needed Jesus as my way to God, but I begged to differ. All I wanted to do was help a friend not get converted. At her house, I gave her a hug and wished her well. I then recorded our encounter on my blog, as you do.

After that I didn't see my friend again for a long time.

Months later, I noticed my sister-in-law, J, driving in the neighbourhood. When I went home, I asked mum if J had been round and she said no. The next time I saw J, I asked her what she'd been doing in the neighbourhood. She said she has a work colleague who lives in the area who she sometimes picks up on the way to the hospital, where she works as a mid-wife. It turned out her work colleague was the same woman whose shopping bags I had carried. She told J she remembered me.

Fast forward to the present moment.

After my mother's recent operation, she was given some injections, which J has been giving her. Because of some burst water mains in the vicinity that has resulted in huge traffic jams, J couldn't come round to give mum the last injection. So she asked mum if she minded if her colleague, the same woman who lives in the area, comes round to give her the injection. Mum said she didn't mind. I told mum I knew who the woman was.

Early this morning I went to my mother's doctor's surgery to collect her prescription. While I was waiting for it, I noticed this boy in the corner and smiled at him. I asked him if he was OK and he said yes. The next thing I know he was sitting next to me and showing me his computer game. My friend, who is almost 8 years old, was waiting for his mother. He was very excited about his holidays next week to Spain. I was so grateful for my friend for keeping my mind off the chaotic doctor's surgery, which is not my favourite scenery.

When I took my mother's medication home I asked her if J's colleague had been to give her the injection and she said no. She said she wasn't bothered because she was expecting another friend round later who could always administer the injection.

On the way out, I noticed J's friend approaching and speaking on her mobile phone. Apparently she couldn't find our address and was asking someone for directions. I had come out at the right moment. I took her back to the flat and even let her in.

It doesn't take much to share the joy. All it takes is a smile, saying hello, a compliment, carrying someone's shopping, sharing an experience I love or find inspiring... and the benefits last forever.

Enocia

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My Reluctant Hero

2009-08-12T15:49:00.005+01:00

During my walk home I noticed this cute black cat in front of a house, so called it to me. The cat didn't seem in the mood to play but I kept calling. Then it leapt on top of the gate. While I was stroking it, it kept looking elsewhere. After about a minute I thanked the cat for allowing me to stroke it. The cat stared right into my eyes. I have a feeling it was saying, "Glad someone got something out of this, as it sure wasn't me!"

I love cats!

Enocia

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A Friendly Visit

2009-08-12T15:42:00.002+01:00

As I was sitting in the library reading a glossy magazine, a wasp flew in and sat on the page. It was the cutest wasp, very tiny, as if it had recently hatched. After allowing me to examine it up close, my friend flew away.

Thanks for stopping by.

Hope you enjoy your life.

Enocia

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Wonders Never Cease!

2009-08-12T14:22:00.008+01:00

When my mother came out of the shower this morning, she had a towel on her head. She asked me who I reminded her of. As I'd only just woken up, my mind was blank.

"I can't think," I said. "You tell me."

"ET. Remember?"

"Oh yeah, you really do look like ET!"

Well guess what? I've just watched Michael Jackson's Human Nature video which is the first time I've seen it as I didn't know there was one for that song. In the video, there are photos of Michael and ET.

Wonders never cease!

We love you forever, Michael!

Enocia

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Following My Natural Rhythm - Aum

2009-08-12T12:50:00.010+01:00

Girl, close your eyes
Let that rhythm get into you
Don't try to fight it
There ain't nothin' that you can do
Relax your mind
Lay back and groove with mine
You got to feel that heat
And we can ride the boogie
Share that beat of love Rock with You, Michael Jackson

In the middle of the night, while I was lying in silence, I heard what I thought was the sound of my mother's electric chair. There's a kind of purring sound it makes when she's lifting it up with the remote control in order for her to get out of the chair. Since she had her hip operation, she has been sleeping on it, as she finds it more comfortable than her bed. After listening for a few minutes I didn't hear her go to the bathroom. Maybe, she's changed her mind. How very odd that I can still hear the sound. If it's not the chair what can it be? Is it the fridge? No I can't hear it from here. Has someone left their car engine running? I got up to look out of the window but there was nothing there.

What the hell is that noise and where is it coming from?

It was then I realised the sound was coming from inside me. Aha, it's the famous "Aum", which Paramahansa Yogananda refers to when he experiences Cosmic Consciousness:

"The creative voice of God I heard resounding as Aum, the vibration of the Cosmic Motor." Autobiography of a Yogi

Although I've experienced the inner sound which I have even used for healing, I've never heard it as the Aum. As I listened to it, it felt like it was coming from both within me and without. It was everywhere.

How many people are going on courses and retreats just to hear the "Aum" which I can hear so clearly and that feels so natural. Years ago I used to chant some mantras that included the "Aum" or "Om." At the time, I was only interested in those mantras because I'd heard they had creative powers. I would find that after chanting for a few weeks and seeing no result, I would give it up as it felt like I was forcing myself to be something I'm not.

I later came to realise that life, for me, is about being true to myself. I find that when I follow my heart I am, as Michael Jackson's song goes: "letting the rhythm (of my Soul) get into you". All I need to do is just do what I love and I'm drawn to a way that's natural for my own unique "evolutionary path", which cannot be taught by any spiritual teacher or guru.

For instance, when I started meditating, I didn't do it because it was spiritual, I did it because it was fun and it felt natural. Through practice I got to discover my essence as Love-Light. Meditation then became another way of expressing my joy. Years later when I tried meditating in a group setting and following a particular technique, it felt artificial. I couldn't relate to the teacher's way or the practice. I decided to just stick to what I do best i.e. meditate in my own way.

I remember once during meditation experiencing this immense heat travelling up my spine. At the time I didn't have a point of reference and just thought I was being burnt alive or something. Fortunately, the heat passed through my head. The next time it happened again I was used to the experience so I just relaxed and let it do its thing. It was only years later that I discovered that experience had a name called the "Kundalini," a kind of creative energy at the base of the spine that can be activated. For a short while I even practised Kundalini Yoga with a group, which was supposed to be a safe technique to help awaken the Kundalini. Again the ritual felt artificial and I soon abandoned it. Besides, why try to awaken the Kundalini when mine is already awake?

Since my early twenties, I've been having inner dialogues with myself. I would have discussions with myself on the computer about whatever issues I had to deal with at the time. Through that technique I discovered that I did have all the answers inside of me. It's a matter of trusting in myself.

Years later when I started studying healing, part of the course included committing yourself to following the guru's teaching. As much as I enjoyed playing around with energy, I couldn't follow the guru's teachings because it didn't feel right. There's nothing inspiring about acting "small" just so I can belong to a group. So I got what I needed from the course and abandoned that path.

There was a time when the Inner Voice suggested that I read the book "Science and Health with Keys to the Scriptures" by Mary Baker Eddy, which I did. At the time I thought I'd discovered the "Holy Grail" and even considered becoming a Christian Scientist, but the Inner Voice advised me that it wasn't my path. I didn't heed the Voice at first but then I started feeling uncomfortable as what I believed in my heart started to clash with the teachings. That was when I finally accepted that following a religion/teaching/school of thought is not for me.

Back to listening to the "Aum", I had a vision where I saw myself in this narrow tunnel. On both sides of the wall were many faces of people of different nationalities all watching me walk through the tunnel. I believe the tunnel represents my own unique path.

I can't force myself to be what I'm not. I can only follow my natural rhythm and be myself; and whatever I need to experience will happen at the time that is right for me.

Om Shanti Om!

Enocia

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No Problem, No Solution

2009-08-11T13:47:00.013+01:00

Ever had one of those moments when things go wrong for no reason at all? I had that while I was working at the library.

When I went to browse a friend's MySpace page, a notice came up that it wasn't available. However, I could open my own MySpace account. I even uploaded a picture. How very odd! About an hour later when I checked the friend's page, it was now working perfectly.

Next, when I looked up one of my articles on my blog, a notice came up that that particular website had been blocked. The odd thing is that I could access my other blogs. So I asked the librarian to ask their IT department why I couldn't have access to that particular blog when I could access the others. While I was waiting for the IT guy to assist me, I tried again and my blog was now accessible.

When the IT guy came I told him I could now access it. He said they do block some websites but he couldn't understand what had happened with mine.

Just as well I believe there is only One Intelligence in control of every single situation, which knows nothing of problems.

Where there are no problems, there are no solutions.

Enocia

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Song of the Day - 14

2009-08-11T12:17:00.000+01:00

LOVE this song "PYT" by Michael Jackson.

Enocia

Every Moment is New

2009-08-10T15:30:00.002+01:00

When I'm experiencing life from silence i.e. not thinking, every moment is new. Why? Because where there is no thought there is no point of reference, and no comparisons. Every moment stands on its own. The moment I start thinking, I get to experience all experiences associated with that thought and get trapped in repeated patterns.

That's why I can watch programmes I love on television such as "Star Trek" and never get bored because every time I see it, I am coming from a new standpoint, which gives me a new meaning.

Being in silence is also good for addressing different feelings I experience in my body which sometimes feel as tightness or pain. When I experience them from silence, I'm no longer trying to associate the feeling with a previous experience. For instance at some point yesterday afternoon I felt a pounding in my head. I wasn't concerned about what it meant I just focused on silence. The pain eventually passed through me without my having to do anything about it.

When I experience every moment as new, then that's bound to have an impact on my physical body. How can it age when every moment I'm drawing in new energy that is regenerating me in every moment?

Every moment is new.

Enocia

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Chain Reaction

2009-08-10T11:44:00.008+01:00

While I was in the bookshop, I picked up a book to browse which had a chapter about dowsing. It says you can use a chain with a pendant to dowse. I remember I used to dowse years ago but I'm no longer interested in it.

About half an hour later when I was walking home, this guy approached me and asked me if I would like to buy a gold chain. He said he could offer me a good deal. I told him I wasn't interested.

Now that's what I call a chain reaction.

Enocia

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Song of the Day - 13

2009-08-10T11:08:00.004+01:00

LOVE this song, "Fascination" by Alphabeat. It feels good!

Enocia

Alphabeat - Fascination (Official Video!!)

For the Love Starved

2009-08-09T13:46:00.011+01:00

I had a very vivid sleeping dream this morning.

As I was walking home, a man appeared beside me.

"Can I walk you home?"

"I don't mind, ta," I smiled at him. "Do you tend to do this a lot then?"

"I do it for a lot of people. The last time I walked this woman we got heavily involved."

"Well, I'm not interested in you in that kind of way."

"Fair enough," he said.

The dream changed and my companion and I were now somewhere crowded that looked like a cafe. A woman came up to our table. When she saw my friend she said to me, "It's him again!"

"What do you mean?" I said.

"The last time he was here, he was with this white lady and looked just like her. Now he's looking just like you but I know he's the same guy."

It was only then that I realised that, apart from the fact that my friend was appearing as a man and he was a few inches taller, he looked exactly like me. He even had a similar build to mine. He could have passed as my identical twin.

"Who are you?" I said.

"I appear to people who are starving for love. I am here to look after you."

Suddenly two guys walked in and wanting to make trouble for the other customers but my friend intervened. One of the guys tried to punch my friend but he just disappeared and reappeared behind them. Everyone marvelled at the speed at which my friend had moved.

Then I woke up.

I know who the guy in my dream is, he is my one true love.

Thank you for always being there for me. I can never be love starved when I've got you.

Enocia

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The song below, by Whitney Houston, represents my one true love:

What a Waste of a Life!

2009-08-08T12:51:00.002+01:00

I've come to realise that if I sleep for an average of 8 hours a night, which is a third of each day, that means I've been sleeping for a third of my life - 14 years.

What a waste of a life!

I must remedy that as soon as I can by increasing my sleeping time to at least 12 hours a night.

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!

Enocia

My One True Love

2009-08-07T12:40:00.029+01:00

While I have many things that I love, I have only the one true love. Every time I look at myself in the mirror I see my one true love staring back at me.

Actually, the mirror image is only an idea of my true love, which is everywhere present. Still, it's good to know that my one true love is always there.

My one true love is my admirer, beloved, best friend, comforter, companion, dreamer, energy, entertainer, guide, healer, heart's desires, inspiration, intelligence, light, lover, magician, nourishment, parent, passion, playmate, power, presence, provider, shape-shifter, source, strength, support, teacher, truth, and vision.

My one true love is constantly being mirrored back at me as experiences, people, situations and things that I love.

I love you forever.

Enocia

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Ahhh...Bliss!

2009-08-07T11:18:00.014+01:00

There are several adverts on television that my mother finds very annoying. As soon as they come on she puts the TV on mute and feels calm and relaxed.

I believe being in silence, i.e. having no thoughts, is rather like putting the world on mute. When I'm experiencing life from silence, I am stopping the world. While the world has stopped for me, it doesn't mean everything is at a standstill. I still continue to experience life as usual, but I do so from a place of detachment.

From that place of detachment, I don't get emotional about anything, and nothing gets to me. I just observe the world is unfolding perfectly in every moment.

For instance, as I walked home in inner silence, I wasn't bothered when it started to rain. I just put up my umbrella. Later while I was watching America's Got Talent from a place of detachment, I made no comparisons; I just enjoyed what each performer had to offer.

Now where's that remote control? That's what I'm talking about.

Ahhh...bliss!

Enocia

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You Can't Fool the Light

2009-08-06T13:19:00.007+01:00

My mother's friend and her daughter came to visit the other day. I haven't seen either of them since my early twenties, which is a long time ago. She said I still looked the same.

While mum's friend was chatting to her, she recommended various tablets and remedies she takes as she believes that by the time you hit 30, it's downhill all the way. After listening to her going on and on about the inevitability of aging, I said to her:

"Aunty, if we're all meant to slow down as we get older, how come your speech hasn't slowed down over the years? You're still as mouthy as when I saw you last."

Everyone burst out laughing.

"Sorry aunty, but I don't buy into any of what you're saying." I said. "You're going to be here forever!"

The next day, my mother had a hospital appointment. After she'd finished getting ready, I noted how radiant she was looking. I even told her she was looking gorgeous. I teased her that the hospital staff are not going to take her seriously if she's not looking the part.

That's the problem with playing up to the belief in aging and sickness, sooner or later the Light within is going to betray you. In my mother's friend's case, the Light was her eternal exuberance; and in my mother's case, the Light was shining as her beauty.

You can't fool the Light that never changes.

Enocia

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Some Thoughts about Racism and Bigotry

2009-08-06T11:48:00.009+01:00

I watched a very interesting TV drama the other day called The Street (episode 4). (Please note only residents in the UK can watch the episode on BBC iPlayer).

Kieran, a bigoted and racist white guy, meets up with a work colleague, he speaks constantly on the phone with, on a blind date, who turns out to be black. Although Kieran is not happy that Maria is black, they go for a drink anyway to the local pub. Finally, Kieran brings up the "sensitive" subject about Maria's colour. He tells Maria that he doesn't like black women. He says he would rather go out with an ugly white woman than with a beautiful black woman. He says that in fact he can't see the beauty in black women, all he sees is their blackness. Maria tells him that she doesn't blame him for being a bigot as his parents and grandparents were probably bigots.

As the drama unfolds, we discover that Kieran's wife had left him for a black man. In another twist Kieran, who hates all immigrants, ends up falling in love with a Polish woman, but they can't be together. It's too long-winded to go into here. Their relationship does enable him to be more tolerant. In the final scene, Kieran meets up with Maria for another date.

After I finished watching the drama, I thought of what Kieran had said to Maria: "I can't see the beauty, I just see the blackness."

I believe just seeing someone's blackness, whiteness, Asianness, Orientalness creates a huge barrier between people.

I've dated black and white guys. Apart from the different skin colours and different faces I discovered it was just another person with the same old hang-ups. It was only when I went beyond the persona/mask that I could see there is only the One Light expressing as the different personalities, cultures, expressions, etc.

And because I can see the Light behind the many masks, I find people treat me the same way and see the Light in me.

Love dissolves racism and bigotry.

Enocia

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Song of the Day - 12

2009-08-05T16:23:00.001+01:00

The old ones are the best. "Just an Illusion" by Imagination.

Enocia

Creativity - Revisited

2009-08-05T15:37:00.012+01:00

I've always liked this particular song but didn't know the name or artist. As it's mostly instrumental, I couldn't look it up to find the title on the Internet either.

A few weeks ago while I was walking down this road, I heard someone playing the song in their house. I figured I would sing the melody to a friend, who knows a lot about music, and ask him what the title is.

I soon forgot the melody, which was rather annoying.

One day last week around 6 am, a car pulled out right outside the window and started blaring music which woke me up. At first, I asked for the driver to move elsewhere where his music would be appreciated, but he stayed put. Just as I was going to ask the Universe to get rid of him, the next song that came on was the music I had forgotten. After playing the entire song, the car drove off.

When I met up with my friend, I sang the melody to him and asked him what it was. He told me it's called "Twilight" by Maze.

I love the many creative ways the Universe has of answering my questions.

Enocia

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I Am What You Need

2009-08-05T13:50:00.008+01:00

I am the friend who is always there for you.
I am the companion that follows you everywhere.
I am the space that allows you to express who you are.
I am the time you need to be by yourself.
I am the ear that listens to your troubles without judgment.
I am the words that uplift you when you're down.
I am the food that nourishes your body and soul.
I am the joke that makes you smile.
I am the playmate you have fun with.
I am the arms that give you comfort.
I am the lover that drives you wild.
I am the muse that inspires you.
I am the clay you mould to create your masterpiece.
I am the teacher that challenges you to grow.
I am the student that learns from your experiences.

I am always there egging you on to keep dreaming.
I am always there believing in you and your dreams.
I am always there rejoicing with you when you fulfil your dreams.

I am your greatest admirer.
I am the one who loves you more than you'll ever know.
I am whatever you need me to be.

Enocia

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What is Mental Illness?

2009-08-05T12:09:00.022+01:00

Yesterday I met up with a cousin I haven't seen in a long while, possibly 20 years. I remember going to visit her at a mental hospital where she was under psychiatric care.

It was really good to see her again. She said she's been on medication for many years and they're helping her to cope with life. As we chatted I reminded her of when I used to visit her at her house. She said she used to hear voices from the books around her.

Call me bonkers but I believe that it's only natural to pick up thoughts because I believe all things are ideas in Mind. When I realised picking up thoughts and ideas was natural, I also realised I have the power to tune in or out.

It has also been my experience that questions and answers always arise as one. These ideas can come from books, the Internet and other people. Therefore, as long as I continue to ask questions, I'll always be picking up thoughts. I believe a lot of people who claim to be "channelling" are only picking up recycled thoughts, that's why they lack originality.

When you're not aware of your true nature and start picking up on thoughts, it's bound to seem scary. People who don't have a point of reference try to put you in a box. I can perfectly understand why psychiatrists tend to label patients whose world view don't fit in with the norm because it's their way of making them fit in. I remember how badly I had wanted to understand my cousin at the time when she was in hospital but I couldn't relate to her reality. I guess that must have been one of the reasons why we didn't stay in contact. It was only when I went through an emotional breakdown (or was it a breakthrough?) and I had a paradigm shift that I could understand where she was coming from.

Back to our conversation, I told my cousin I used to see/hear thoughts a lot until I learned how to "block" them out. I said now I only consciously let thoughts in that I choose to let in.

Before she left she said to me, "I have to tell you something. There are many yous, you know."

"What do you mean?" I said.

"It's difficult to explain. While your mind is feeling peaceful, there are other yous out there doing stuff."

"Oh, I know what you mean," I said. "I believe we are all multi-dimensional beings that exist everywhere."

She was genuinely pleased that I could understand her. Of course I can! It takes one nutter to understand another. It also turned out both of us are the same age, I'm 3 weeks older than her.

Given how extensively I have written about my inner journeys and realisations, which are not exactly orthodox, I'm sure some people think I'm a sandwich short of a picnic. That's why I don't do doctors.

Seems to me like the lunatics are taking over the asylum. And why not?

Enocia

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Song of the Day - 11

2009-08-05T10:57:00.001+01:00

I absolutely LOVE this song! "Twilight" by Maze. I could listen to it forever.

Enocia

Song of the Day - 10

2009-08-03T15:13:00.005+01:00

I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE this song! The video expresses what life means to me.

"Bittersweet Symphony" by "The Verve."

Enocia

Here's my analysis of the video: Staying Focused on the Mould

Achieving the Impossible

2009-08-03T14:20:00.012+01:00

Last night I watched the amazing documentary called Man on Wire that someone had recommended a while back. It's about how Philippe Petit performed an illegal tightrope walk between the Twin Towers.

I thought it was amazing how, as a teenager, while Philippe was waiting at a dentist's reception, he noticed an article in a newspaper about the Twin Towers. Even though the Twin Towers were only at the design state (idea) and took ages for them to be built, Philippe had already caught the bug. It took him a few years to plan and prepare for that walk.

It seems to me like Philippe's future self at the Twin Towers had brought the article to his attention and was encouraging him to follow his dreams. He ended up attracting friends who would help him achieve that dream. Even though they didn't share his self-belief, at least they did support him.

There's no way he could have achieved what he did if he had followed the rules. He and his friends had to come up with some creative ways to get inside of that building.

I thought it was amazing after Philippe had performed the first walk and the police tried to grab him, he kept running back and forth between the towers. Man, Philippe was on another realm! Tthe police officer couldn't help being in awe at what Philippe had achieved.

I also loved when they asked Philippe why he'd done what he did he said, "There is no why!"

Thank you, Philippe, for reminding me that when you believe in the impossible, you can achieve the impossible.

Enocia

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See also "Metro" interview with Philippe Petit: Living Life on the High Wire

Happiness - Revisited

2009-08-03T12:05:00.030+01:00

As I was walking out of the library, I noticed a young woman sitting in a corner munching at some crisps (potato chips) and playing on her mobile phone.

"You look very relaxed there eating your crisps!" I said to her, which made her giggle. Then I waved goodbye.

What really attracted me to the young woman was how blissful she was doing what she loves. At that moment there was no one around to give her any hassle, no expectations, no obligations; she can just be herself.

When I went for a walk later I noticed how several cyclists that went past seemed in utter bliss. Again they were doing what they enjoyed. I came across a man walking his dog and I said hello. Both seemed really content.

I also noticed how blissful nature is. The plants are expressing who they are in their own unique way, efortlessly.

There's nothing like being alone and expressing what I love the most whether it's writing, going on long walks, reading, listening to music or watching a programme I enjoy on television. While I am enjoying or doing what I love, I'm being my Self that is total bliss and every moment is magical, perfect and wonderful.

I'm not saying I don't enjoy being with people but only if we are in one accord about expressing our happiness together. I don't see the point sacrificing myself just so I could avoid being alone. Besides, I'm never alone anyway. I believe that the moment I'm doing what I love, I'm automatically joined in consciousness with all who are expressing their joy. That's why I ended up noticing/was attracted to the woman who was enjoying her crisps, the cyclists, the man walking his dog, and how blissful nature is; which magnified my own happiness.

I am happiness.

Enocia

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Song of the Day - 9

2009-08-03T11:49:00.002+01:00

I just LOVE Judy Garland's voice. It is so full and rich. Here she is singing: "Over the Rainbow."

Enocia

The Right Environment to Flourish

2009-08-02T14:35:00.004+01:00

I'm no gardener but one thing I do know is seeds in a packet will always remain seeds.

It is only when those seeds are planted in the right soil, watered, and given lots of care and attention that those seeds will end up reaching their full potential as fruits, flowers, or whatever they're destined to become.

In the same respect, I believe people are little seeds that flourish in the right environment. I believe that environment is love, acceptance/self-acceptance and support. Then the individual gets to express what they love the most and be who they really are.

Enocia

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Blessings Come in Many Different Forms

2009-08-01T11:30:00.009+01:00

I believe I am blessed in every moment. By this I mean, every moment is overflowing with joy and wonder.

On the way to the local shop to buy my mother's newspaper, she asked me to get some salt as well, as we've nearly run out. At the shop I noticed there was only one salt left on the shelf. Although there were already four customers queuing up to pay for their items, every single one of them told me to go ahead in front of them.

I believe blessings come in many different forms, which in this case appeared as the last salt on the shelf and being allowed to jump the queue.

Thank you, Universe, for your infinite blessings in every moment.

Enocia

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Help is Always Available Directly or Indirectly

2009-08-01T09:54:00.023+01:00

I have observed that any time someone asks me for help it always means I can offer assistance otherwise they wouldn't have approached me in the first place. Even when I'm not in a position to offer direct assistance, I can always offer indirect assistance by believing that the perfect solution is already available. I have also observed that the moment I ask a question the answer is always available.

My sister-in-law has been coming round to give my mother her injections. One day last week when I went home, my mother's friend was visiting. While we were chatting, I asked mum if her daughter-in-law had been round and she said she couldn't make it that day. Mum said she'll have to wait till the next day for her next injection. It was then her friend mentioned that many years ago he was a teacher on a health course which included teaching how to give injections. He said if mum liked he could administer the injection. Mum couldn't believe all this time she'd known her friend he'd never spoken about that facet of his life until now. Not only did he give mum her injection, he offered to come round when my sister-in-law wasn't available.

A few days ago while I was waiting for my bus, I decided to catch another bus for a change. As soon as I sat next to this man he asked me if I knew the area and I said I did. He said he was looking for a bus garage in the area. Apparently, he'd lost his pass and needed to get another one from that garage. As I've explored many of the back streets in that area, I knew exactly where the garage was and told him where to get off. Now it made sense why I had explored the area in the first place so that one day I can share my expertise with my friend on the bus.

As I was walking through the park yesterday, I noticed this dog walking towards me. The dog sniffed the woman in front of me. By the way she reacted, it seemed to me that she was frightened of dogs. When the dog walked by me it didn't even look in my direction. I was curious to know what made that woman so special that she got a sniff while I was ignored.

When I caught up with the woman at the park gates I said to her, "I see you've got a friend then in that dog?"

"It really got to me the way it sniffed me," she smiled. "I must really get used to dogs, you know, as I'm getting one next week."

"You are?" I said. "What breed?"

"A Schnauzer."

"I don't know that one, what does it look like?"

"It's the type that has a beard."

"Oh, I think I know the one you mean. Is it small or does it grow large?"

"The one I'm getting is a miniature one so it's not going to grow that big. I've still got to get used to having a dog though."

"Well, enjoy your dog," I said.

So that's why the dog in the park had sniffed her and not me because the Universe as the dog was testing to see whether she was now ready for a dog or not.

Later on, while I was walking down this street, a woman approached me with a street map of the area. She pointed out the road on the map and asked me in broken English if the road we were on was it. I told her I didn't know as I don't tend to memorise side street names. I couldn't see the street sign either. I asked her to walk with me to the end of the road where I was hoping there would be a sign on the building. When we got there, I couldn't see one. Just at that moment, a post office worker pulled up in his van to empty the post box at the end of the road, he's bound to know the name of this road as it's his job to know. He knew the name of the road we were on, and he also directed the woman to the street she was looking for, which was only around the corner.

I believe help is always available directly or indirectly. All I have to do is ask.

Enocia

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Skeletor

2009-07-31T13:18:00.010+01:00

So I was chatting with an Internet friend about how I used to love the cartoon series called He Man and the Masters of the Universe. I said my favourite character in the series was the villain Skeletor as he was so incorrigibly bad. The series also inspired me to write this article: There is Only One Power.

After that I had this strong feeling to listen to "Encore Une Fois" by Sash on YouTube, which I happen to love. There were several versions but the version I preferred simply had a photo with the words: "I love Electro. I noticed the heart shape had a photo of a skull, which reminds me of Skeletor.

It's amazing the many ways I attract what I love the most!

Enocia

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Song of the Day - 8

2009-07-31T13:04:00.001+01:00

Always LOVED this song: "Encore Une Fois" by Sash. It makes me want to go clubbing.

Enocia

Go Away, Rain!

2009-07-31T11:32:00.011+01:00

As I was walking home, I saw two fire engines driving by. In the distance I could see thick smoke billowing from a building. The sky was thick with smoke. and I could even smell it. At one point I started coughing. I heard some passers-by saying the fire was at a local school. Just as well the kids are on holidays.

I reminded myself that I'm walking in Light and asked the Light to clear the smoky environment around me. I felt better.

I also had a thought that the building could do with some rain to help put out the fire. A few minutes later it started drizzling which became a downpour.

As I was putting up my brolley, I thought to myself "It's not me that needs rain, silly! Please go away as I need to walk home in dry weather."

It stopped raining and remained dry and sunny the rest of the way.

Rain, rain, go away!
Come again when I really need you!

Enocia

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Shmoo - The Shape Shifter

2009-07-31T11:05:00.003+01:00

A friend has just brought a cartoon to my attention called Shmoo which he said he used to watch as a child. As soon as I saw Schmoo, he reminded me of the Shape Shifter within, which changes shapes into many different forms to meet the need. I discuss my own purple Shape Shifter in Paving the Way.

Thank you for bringing this series to my attention, which is so timely.

Enocia

It's Only Natural - Revisited

2009-07-30T13:02:00.011+01:00

As I chatting to a security guard at the library, he asked me how my mother was as he's met her before. I told him she'd recently had a hip replacement operation and was getting better.

"That's what happens when you get older, your body starts to give way."

"Really?"

"Yes, it's only natural."

Although I didn't agree with my friend's opinion, my heart told me to say nothing and remain silent.

All I know is what is natural for me is being in radiant health regardless how I old I am.

Enocia

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Paving the Way

2009-07-30T10:23:00.034+01:00

Years ago I remember waking up in the middle of the night and felt this presence and when I opened my eyes I saw it was a purple, amorphous, mass. The purple mass then formed itself into a finger and it touched my shoulder. I realised I had become aware of my essence, the Shape Shifter and Dreamer, that is constantly shape shifting as the many. Every day I have a choice whether to live with conscious awareness of the Shape Shifter or not.

On my way home yesterday evening, as I didn't fancy walking all the way to the traffic lights, I decided to use the subway/underground tunnel to get to the other side. The only snag about this tunnel is there are many sharp corners and you never know when someone else is approaching from the other side. I was suddenly aware of this Power coming from my heart and shooting out in front of me. I knew It was clearing the way for me. All I had to do was walk with faith. Considering it was rush hour, when a lot of commuters are rushing to either catch their tubes (underground trains) or coming out of the tubes, the subway was totally empty.

When I got out of the subway, I saw it was quite cloudy and looked like it was going to rain. I asked the Power to make it dry for me. In my mind's eye, I saw what looked like a mist reaching up into the sky and going ahead of me. I decided to take a shortcut that would lead to the local park not far from home, but when I got there I couldn't find it. It was as if that path had been blocked. It even started to rain so I put up my umbrella. The moment I retraced my steps back to the main road to walk back the long way, the rain stopped. It was dry all the way home.

As I walked home, I asked the Power to ensure I had a relaxing evening. When I got home I was so chilled out I didn't feel like eating anything heavy. I just had some breakfast cereal, watched a bit of television, and was in bed by 10 o'clock.

One of my favourite passages in the Bible is as follows:

I will go before thee, and make the crooked places straight: I will break in pieces the gates of brass, and cut in sunder the bars of iron: And I will give thee the treasures of darkness, and hidden riches of secret places, that thou mayest know that I, the LORD, which call thee by thy name, am the God of Israel. Isaiah 45: 2-3

I believe the "LORD" is the Shape Shifter, the Power that goes ahead and paves the way and make all things harmonious and wonderful. I believe it's important to remember to invoke this Power every day.

Thank you for paving the way for me in every moment.

Enocia

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Not Again!

2009-07-29T14:35:00.012+01:00

When I went home yesterday I noticed there was a tray on the kitchen table full of fruits of every variety.

Not again! I grumbled to myself.

"I take it your friend came to visit then?" I said to mum.

"Yes, he brought those fruits for me."

"That's all we need, more fruits!"

"I feel the same way but I didn't tell him that though," she said. "I thanked him profusely for bringing them."

"At least he only brought fruits and not vegetables," I said.

"He knows how time-consuming it is to pick and cut them. I'm hardly in a position to do all that work."

"Where are you going to put these fruits as we've got enough as it is, and I'm not in the mood to eat fruits."

"I'm going to just bung them all in the blender and make fruit juice."

"Oh good! I have a feeling the angels are bored and entertaining themselves by continuously sending us food."

Mum laughed. "They have been sending a lot lately."

"Can you imagine if we were to receive all of our good in an instant? There wouldn't be enough space in London to contain them."

Later in the evening when another of my mother's friend paid a visit he had a bag with him for my mother and asked me to put the contents in the fridge.

"You haven't brought more food, have you?" I said.

"No, just fruit juice. These ones have lots of minerals which your mum needs to help her get better."

"But you brought some juice yesterday!"

"So what? I enjoy spending my money on your mum. She's a good friend and deserves it."

"How about spending your money on me as I deserve it too?" I teased him.

He promised to buy me some Vimto, my favourite drink, on his next visit.

Thank you, Universe, for providing superabundantly, even though I moan about it.

Enocia

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Shining in Every Moment

2009-07-29T12:26:00.020+01:00

One of my favourite films is The Shining, about a family employed to look after an isolated hotel during the winter months. On one level, it's the perfect job for Jack who is a writer; they have tons of food to last them over the winter months, and their son Danny has lots of room to play. On another level, the hotel has got a shady past which only Danny, who is psychic, can sense.

I love when the family is introduced to the chef, Dick, who is also psychic. Dick instantly knows Danny is a kindred spirit. While Dick is describing to Wendy (Mrs Torrance) what food they have in stock, he is communicating telepathically with Danny about ice cream.

Dick Hallorann: We've got canned fruits and vegetables, canned fish and meats, hot and cold syrups, Post Toasties, Corn Flakes, Sugar Puffs, Rice Krispies, Oatmeal... and Cream of Wheat. You got...

[then, telepathically to Danny]

Dick Hallorann: How'd you like some ice cream, Doc?

Dick Hallorann: ...a dozen jugs of black molasses, we got sixty boxes of dried milk, thirty twelve-pound bags of sugar... Now we got dried peaches, dried apricots, dried raisins and dried prunes. You know Mrs. Torrance, you got to keep regular, if you want to be happy!

When Dick and Danny have the opportunity to chat on their own, Dick talks about what it means to be telepathic:

Dick Hallorann: I can remember when I was a little boy. My grandmother and I could hold conversations entirely without ever opening our mouths. She called it "shining." And for a long time, I thought it was just the two of us that had the shine to us. Just like you probably thought you was the only one. But there are other folks, though mostly they don't know it, or don't believe it. Quotes from "The Shining"

I can very much relate to "shining." For instance, yesterday I was chatting to a friend who has been off sick with "Swine Flu." I was carrying the conversation on two levels. On the surface level I was asking him about how he was feeling and listening to him describing the symptoms, his visit to the doctor, the medication he's been taking; while on a deeper level, where I experience life, I was dissolving the belief in "Swine Flu" with "Love is all there is", sending my friend love and giving him a hug. In other words, at the deeper level I was shining.

I would go bonkers if I only experienced life on the surface level.

Nothing can dull my shine.

Enocia

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The Shape Shifter

2009-07-28T15:10:00.001+01:00

The following article was previously posted at my It's All Done and Dusted - Part 2 blogs.

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Monday, 20 April 2009

The Shape Shifter

The real me is the shape shifter that can identity as any shape, form or idea. I even have a name for my shape shifter self.

Whenever I use the words I AM this or that with conscious intent, I am invoking the shape shifter which automatically identifies Herself as whatever thoughts or ideas I have in mind such as a daughter, sister, lover, partner, friend, male, female, writer, people, music, art, dance, animal, a tree, a mountain, the earth, planets, galaxies, love, peace, joy, happiness, abundance, wisdom, etc.

Shape shifting comes in very handy when I want to dissolve a state like when I've injured myself. I simply think I AM Spirit and the pain is instantly dissolved.

If I'm feeling sad and don't wish to prolong that state I simply think I AM Happiness and I feel happy.

When I don't wish to identify as any thought or idea, I stay in silence. Then the shape shifter reverts to its essence - formlessness.

I AM whatever I think I am.

Enocia

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Song of the Day - 7

2009-07-28T13:48:00.002+01:00

Another great Luther Vandross song: "Never Too Much." LOVE it!

Enocia

My Friends are Everywhere - 2

2009-07-28T12:28:00.003+01:00

As I was walking home yesterday I saw this guy at the bus stop. When I smiled hello at him I realised he lived in our neighbourhood.

"What are you doing this far from home?" he said.

"I'm walking home."

"Why aren't you getting the bus home?" he said.

"Because I prefer to walk."

"Do you want me to pay for your fare?"

"No, I'm fine, thank you."

"Well, have a safe journey home," he said.

It's good to know I have friends everywhere looking out for me.

Enocia

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Song of the Day - 6

2009-07-28T11:21:00.006+01:00

I've been thinking a lot about Luther Vandross and remembering all his wonderful love songs. His songs are so timeless. Here's one I LOVE: "So Amazing."

I love you, Luther!

Enocia

Song of the Day - 5

2009-07-27T13:09:00.004+01:00

What is it about this song by Spandau Ballet that I LOVE so much? I guess because it's "True". Yup, "I know this much is true." :-)

Enocia

What is Resistance?

2009-07-27T12:57:00.008+01:00

During my walk I decided to pick blackberries to take home with me.

I noticed they are in three stages of development: ones that are not ready; ones that appear ready; and the ones that are ready.

I don't bother with the ones that are not ready.

The ones that appear ready look black and ripe, however, they are quite hard and when I try to pick them they don't come off that easily. It's as if the berries are saying they are not yet ready. I have found that although they are edible, they can taste sour, which is not surprising as they're not expressing their fullest potential.

The ones that are ready are a lot softer and come off easily. In fact, they are almost ready to drop and they taste sweet and juicy.

My blackberry friends got me thinking about life experiences. Resistance is a sign that I'm trying to force things to happen; to pick fruits that are not yet ready to be harvested. When I try to force the issue, it might seem to work out but deep inside it doesn't feel right. It's best to simply let nature take its course. Then what I love ends up chasing me or lands on my lap.

When I took the blackberries home, my mother asked why I didn't have as many as the previous week.

"That's because not all of the ones I picked were ready."

"Yes, some of them were sour."

"I know."

This time mum said they were all delicious.

Life is always sweet when I let nature take its course.

Enocia

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It Takes One to Know One

2009-07-27T11:30:00.007+01:00

The other day I went into town to listen to a rap performance. I expected it to be an outdoor event but when I arrived it was indoors. The venue was already full to capacity and there was a long queue outside. We were advised that they were now only letting people in on a "one out and one in" system, which meant it would be a long wait. However, anyone interested in hearing the performance can always listen via the PA system installed round the corner. I thought I'd give that a go. Besides, I didn't mind standing outside as that is what I had expected anyway.

As I was walking round the building to where the PA system was, I heard someone admiring this guy's t-shirt. I was curious to see what was so special about it.

"What's on your t-shirt? Let me have a look!" I said to the guy.

The words read: "I Love Tokyo."

"Is that it?" I chuckled.

"He must obviously like Tokyo as well," he said.

I happen to love listening to Japanese people. It's my second favourite language, after Italian.

My friend and I stood near the PA system. Because of the glare of the sun it was difficult to see through the window. I had to press my nose against the window and peer in. It was then I noticed this woman inside the building had "Tokyo Cowboys" at the back of her t-shirt. When I turned round to point it out to my friend with the Tokyo t-shirt he wasn't there.

After listening for a few minutes, I decided to see if the queue had gone down so I could get into the venue, but it was still long. I returned to my spot outside the building. It was then I noticed my Tokyo t-shirt friend standing there. I grabbed his hand and led him to the window and pointed out the "Tokyo Cowboy” woman. My friend shook his head and laughed.

It's good to see the magic of synchronicity is always at work no matter what I'm doing.

It takes one Tokyo lover to know one.

Enocia

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My Friends are Everywhere

2009-07-27T10:16:00.010+01:00

It's amazing the different ways I get to connect with friends.

As I was taking a walk via the canal, I noticed this man polishing his boat. I was curious about what product he was using.

"Is that a special product you are using to make your boat so shiny?"

He showed me the product and when I saw it, I laughed out loud.

"Baby oil?"

"Yes, not only does it make it shiny, when it rains the water just slides off it."

My friend told me how he came across that information which he's shared with others. I asked him what it was like to live on a canal boat and whether there was enough space. He said they had all the home convenience, microwave, washing machine, television and enough room for him, his wife and their guard dog. He said they were mooring at that space to get water and to get rid of their rubbish and they were heading further north. I asked him what route he was taking and he told me. It turned I knew that route as I've explored it by foot.

While we were chatting, he introduced me to his wife and their German Shepherd dog. While his wife was off on her walk, my friend and chatted for about half an hour. We had so much in common. I used to live in the town where he was born. His grown up kids (the eldest is now 50) live in a place called Canvey Island; I once stayed at a caravan site at Canvey Island and we even went to the local night club. My friend has spent time in Australia; I've been to Australia. The only thing we didn't have in common was our football teams; he supports Tottenham Hotspurs and I support Liverpool. I told him Liverpool was the best team in the world and he didn't agree. :-)

It's wonderful to see my friends everywhere.

Enocia

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Moan, Moan, Moan!

2009-07-26T12:54:00.011+01:00

As I was shaving my armpit the other day I had a good moan to myself about having to shave. My legs needed a shave but I couldn't be bothered. It would be so nice to have a hair removal system that doesn't involve shaving, chemicals or waxing. It has to be pain free. Otherwise, I really can't be bothered.

This morning I noticed this packet in the living room. At closer inspection, it was a pain free and easy to remove hair removal system. What? I must be sleep-walking again. Hang on, I never sleep walk! I'm wide awake. But this can't be for my mother as she hardly shaves as she's got smooth and silky legs. She says she hardly shaves her armpit either. Where did it come from?

"What's this, mum?" I said. "Whose is it?"

"It's mine."

"But you don't need to shave!"

"I saw it on a shopping channel the other day and I ordered it," she said. "It's supposed to be very good."

"Oh yeah? Let me have a go."

I took one of the pads which you're meant to move in a circular way on dry skin. When moved in one direction, it exfoliates the skin; and in the other direction, it removes the hair. I tried it on one leg and wonders of wonders, the hairs were coming off. And it didn't hurt, it was like having a massage.

"This is fantastic!" I said. "I was only moaning to myself the other day about shaving and now I've found this product."

"It's like you always say, answers are everywhere," she said. "You can have it."

"Really? Thanks!" I said. "It's even good for facial hair too."

"That's why I ordered it."

"Well you're welcome to use it for your facial hair as it does work."

Just shows moaning does have its benefits.

I'm reminded of a car advert on television. When they first started showing it my mother said she didn't like the music as she believed it gave her a headache. I actually loved the ad concept and the music. Each time it came on she would either have a moan or put the TV on mute. Just recently I noticed they'd changed the music but were still using the same concept.

"See mum, they heard you and they've got a new song just for you."

I believe moaning is another kind of prayer.

Moan, moan, moan!

Actually, the Universe doesn't seem to mind, so I'll moan as loud as I want.

Enocia

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The Rainbow at the End of the Downpour

2009-07-25T15:43:00.005+01:00

While I was walking home it started drizzling, but I was reluctant to open my umbrella. The drizzle turned into a heavy downpour. Damn! Within a few minutes the rain ceased. I looked up and saw the most amazing rainbow. Aha, so that's what you were trying to do, express yourself as this magnificent rainbow.

As I was walking down this street I noticed two guys chatting. They stopped chatting when I approached them and one gave me a once-over. I thought of a perfect way to distract him.

"Look, rainbow!" I pointed out to the sky.

"Oh yeah," he said. "It's beautiful!"

I don't mind the rain, when there is such a beautiful rainbow after.

Enocia

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Why It's Important to Stay Neutral

2009-07-25T15:13:00.013+01:00

Over the last few weeks they've been advertising a compilation album on television. There's one particular song that comes on that I don't like. Last night when I saw a clip of the song, I had the same feeling.

Guess what happened? A friend who shares videos via emails sent me a link to that same song today

I still don't like the song.

It just shows that it is my emotions that attracts experiences, whether it's something I like or don't like. In other words, "What you resist persists."

When I don't want to attract something, I either don't give it my attention or I stay neutral.

Enocia

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It's a Different World

2009-07-25T13:58:00.014+01:00

Sometimes I feel like I'm living in a different world to most people.

When I went to collect my mother's prescription from her doctor's I drew a blank. I couldn't remember how the system works i.e. that you have to sign on behalf of the patient and what boxes to tick. I guess it's been such a long time since I've experienced that system, it feels quite foreign, like they're speaking a language I no longer understand.

While I was waiting to collect the tablets at the pharmacist, I sat next to this woman. I saw she had this strange looking object so I asked her what it was. She said it was for prescriptions. As I still couldn't make out what it was, I asked her to explain. The thing had 28 compartments with the 7 days of the week at the top and the four times of the day on the left. She said that because her husband needs to take tablets four times a day, it helps him or his carer remember when to take the next ones. Now it made sense. The packet was like a bigger version of the "pill." I remember when I used to take the pill, I found it really handy having the days to remind me.

My friend said her husband was in a nursing home at the moment and had run out of tablets and she's been running back and forth trying to sort it out. I told her I was collecting my mother's prescription. I said I was bewildered at first because it's been such a long time since I was at a doctor's surgery.

"Don't you go to doctors?"

"No," I said.

"You've never been to a doctor?"

"Oh I used to, it's just I haven't been to one in years. I don't even have one now."

"But how do you cope?"

"I just pray."

"That's good. What church do you go to?"

"I don't follow any religion, I just believe in God," I said.

When the pharmacist called out my mother's name, I said goodbye to my friend and wished her and her husband well.

It's funny how the world is still the same and yet it's totally different from the one I now live in.

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Song of the Day - 4

2009-07-25T12:16:00.002+01:00

I watched the film The Beach last night and this song is featured in it: "Pure Shores" by All Saints. Reminded me how much I LOVE that song and the group.

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Quote of the Day

2009-07-24T18:20:00.005+01:00

A friend shared this words of wisdom which I think is brilliant.

"Give them what they want, not what you think they want, and you will be successful, and they will be happy." -- Author Unknown

So true.

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Being Passive

2009-07-24T16:10:00.008+01:00

In this week's issue of Sport Magazine, there's an interview with Britain's motorcycle racer, James Toseland. Toseland talks about how he leaves all his aggression on the track. He says as soon as he takes his helmet off he's as "passive as anything."

It got me thinking about aggression. Is aggression part of the human experience which needs to be unleashed otherwise we end up either internalising it and making ourselves ill or take it out on our loved ones?

At least James Toseland expresses his aggression on a racing track.

For me, writing is an excellent outlet for me to express my various moods. The computer screen doesn't judge what I say or how I'm feeling, I can just let rip.

Another way I express what I'm feeling is I like to give myself space to simply observe the emotions with detachment. I can then choose which emotion I want to take personally and express; or which to just let slip by.

After I have expressed or released the emotion(s), I'm back to being passive.

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Telepathy

2009-07-24T14:00:00.005+01:00

It's funny how during our day to day lives, we pretend we are all in our own little worlds and completely disconnected from one another. But are we really?

During my bus journey this morning, as I was reading a magazine, I heard a passenger two seats in front speaking on her mobile phone.

"Boy, she's loud!" I thought to myself.

When the woman finished her conversation, she turned round and apologised for sounding so loud. She said she'd left her 10 year old daughter at home with her father and she'd been trying to call her but she wasn't answering her mobile. She said she got really concerned and was about to get off the bus and return home. That's why her voice was raised.

"It's OK," I said.

Aha, so you did hear me then!

We are one!

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Song of the Day - 3

2009-07-24T10:33:00.000+01:00

LOVE this song: "Drive" by The Cars.

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Song of the Day - 2

2009-07-23T13:20:00.004+01:00

I woke up in the middle of the night with this song in my head: "I want to know what love is" by Foreigner. Just as well I LOVE the song as it would have been very annoying.

When I woke up this morning, it was still playing in my head like someone sending me a telepathic message.

"I want to know what love is. I want you to show me. I want to feel what love is. I know you can show me."

So do I.

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The Problem with Generalisations

2009-07-23T10:45:00.016+01:00

In last night's episode of "Sex and the City", which is about the lives and loves of four close girlfriends, Carrie introduces her new boyfriend, Berger, to her friends. Miranda tells her friends about a man she went out who wouldn't go back to her place for "coffee." She asks Berger for his opinion as a guy. Berger tells her that a guy will never miss out on an opportunity to spend the night. The only time he will pass is when he's not into the woman. Berger tells Miranda to expect an apologetic email from her date to try and to make excuses. Charlotte, who is a great believer in love, doesn't believe Berger. She assures Miranda that there must be another reason why her date wasn't keen on spending more time with her, but Berger insists Miranda's date is not into her.

Miranda buys into Berger's theory and expects never to see her date again. She soon receives an email from her date which she interprets as his way of trying to make an excuse. One day while she's having lunch, she eavesdrops a conversation between two young women discussing why one friend hasn't heard from her boyfriend. The other friend assures her he's probably busy and he's going to call. Miranda is so convinced that the "he's just not into you" rule applies in every situation that she decides to share the "good news" with the young women. She tells her the man is not into her so she should just move on. Her advice is not appreciated.

A few days later, Miranda's friend calls to arrange another dinner date. They go out for another curry and get on really well. After the meal, Miranda asks him back to her place, but he tells her he can't make it. Miranda asks him to be honest that he's just not into her. Her date says he really likes her but the reason why he has to go home because he has diarrhoea. Miranda now realises that both dinner dates had been two hot for him to handle.

That's the problem with generalisations, they tend to be based on false assumptions and expectations. Maybe, I should say ALL generalisations are based on false assumptions and expectations, then I will be generalising. Ha!

I believe there are some generalisations that are true for everyone. For instance, we all want to prosper, be happy, and fulfilled, but how they are expressed depends on each individual's idea of happiness, prosperity and fulfilment. It's because I believe we are all unique, that's why when I share my experiences, I share in the first person. It's up to the readers to decide whether they identify with my experiences or not.

Today is a wonderful day.
Every day is wonderful.

There I go generalising again! When will I ever learn?

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I Am What I Am

2009-07-22T12:53:00.009+01:00

I reconnected with an old friend from university at Facebook. After she read one of my articles she said I sounded very deep and philosophical and reminded her of the conversations we used to have while we were at university. She said she rarely has those conversation these days; she's too busy trying to make ends meet and only has the occasional reflection.

I told my friend that I don't write about philosophy, which tends to be just intellectual and have nothing to do with reality. My focus over the years has always been about how to apply what I believe in every day life. I know I'm not here to just focus on survival issues but to make real those lofty "philosophical" ideals and dreams right here and now. Otherwise, what's the point of living.

Our email exchange is a very timely reminder for me that I haven't changed at all. I'm still the same old me always dreaming over how things can be better.

The world needs more dreamers who are not only dreaming up wonderful ways of being, but sharing how practical their dreams are. We wouldn't have electricity if there wasn't a dreamer like Thomas Edison.

I am what I am. I am a dreamer.

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